Well, I've been meaning to do this for a while but I've left it so long it probably isn't relevant anymore. This is mainly to get my own perceived cyber 'white elephant' out of my head I suppose, because in hindsight, Deviant art was an odd place to try and deal with a bi-polar diagnosis. Maybe I wasn't thinking clearly at the time, (hehe). So, I just wanted to apologise for my then confusion and to say thanks to those of you who reassured me through it (if you're still around, it's been a while after all). Really, thank you, especially considering the nature of the net where anonymity can sometimes make people be dicks. Your reaction then makes me feel way less embarrassed now about the whole thing.
As for being bi-polar, it's actually not the big deal I thought it was going to be. I have a really good doctor. He's so excited about it and constantly gushes about what a 'fascinating condition' it is. For my part, I just eat clean, exercise, take ridiculous amounts of vitamins and fish oil, use tonnes of herbs (legal ones), avoid stress like the plague and pretty much have it under control with barely any medication... and my hubby of course, he's such a good sport! Of course, I miss the hyper-manic spurts of frantic creativity as much as the next bi-polar person does, but... oh well. I still get moments of inspiration but now I actually have to work for them instead of just pumping that chit out in a day or whatever. The downside is that it's harder to stay interested in an idea but on the plus side, it's gives me a real kick when I do actually finish something.
So yeah, no big deal (not to belittle the seriousness of the disorder), but it turns out that in my case there wasn't really any need for pessimism after all. Stress is the big no-no for me, I've discovered, but other than that it's actually been really undramatic. So, I hope I didn't scare anyone as much as I scared myself and if I did, then I owe you this long-over-due apology.